Always thinking about what my life is going to be now.
I’m going to be 25 in Novembre and honestly it’s a big deal for me. Everybody tells me I’m young. Of course you’re young at 25, but nevertheless I don’t like thinking I’m reaching 30. First I wanted to answer them my life isn’t turning the way I imagined it when I was a child, then I realise that’s not true ! I remember quite well fearing to be the last sister leaving home, including the fact I already wanted to be an academic.
I’ve got to admit my worst fear is to finish ALONE, which means ALL by myself, without a man. Before, I used to think I needed someone to take care of me. Now, I wonder if I really need a man, probably the answer is yes. We need Love. For the moment (and after what I’ve been going through lately) I’m not ready to open my heart again. I’m scared to be hurt one more time. My last relation hurt me so bad. The more you love someone, the more you suffer when he decides to let you down and that’s exactly what happened. I wanted so bad to move in with him and pass the rest of my life by his side. Now, it’s time to adapt my goals.
Old projects, like travelling around the world don’t look so extravagant anymore. There’s so much places I want to visit, so much countries, cities. I’m going to post my “To do list” later today.
If you have some ideas, you’re welcome !!!