You are just lying in your bed watching the ceiling when you can’t stop yourself thinking about it. Why all the men I’ve had feelings for are running away from me … Leaving me for another woman, another country, for war. It looks like I’m unable to make them stay or that no man can love me enough to stay. Why does it have to be so hard saying goodbye ? And why this knot in my belly every time I’m thinking about him … I can’t be with him .. I can just hold on at those memories. I don’t even know if he thinks about me sometimes. I can just hope he hasn’t forget and that he too has a smile on his face when he remembers the time we spent together.